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Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Teacher As Writer

Most of the time I sit down to write, I am not sure what I am going to say. I have so much to say that I don't know where to begin. One of the Dons (Murry or Graves) said that writing is a tool for knowing. That is isn't until you write that you can know; know the way you think about a given issue without the muddle.

When I am walking, I think the most genius things. I have great ideas to write in my notebook. I come across ideas that I want to explore but most times, I do not stop to record them on my phone, so by the time I sit down to write, those pristine thoughts are replaced with a muddle. That is how I feel today. And that's okay... okay that I have so much in my mind, writing is great for that, but not okay that I am in the habit of letting those sweet thoughts slip away.

Today, I will invest in my writing by stopping to record thoughts as they come. Today, I will love myself enough to be my own thought paparazzi. This morning, I stumbled upon an article written about Donald Graves by Tom Romano and it just what I needed. In the article, he included this piece about teachers writing regularly:

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

Time Blocking



Yesterday, I read an article by Darius Foroux titled "Time Blocking: Improve Your 
Focus and Get More Meaningful Work Done"There were two quotes in the article 
that struck me: 

It’s Steven Pressfield’s famous analogy, from his book The War Of Art, for getting work done.
"The amateur only works when inspiration strikes. The pro sits down every day and puts in steady work. The key is steady. Not irregular or extreme."
“The sure sign of an amateur is he has a million plans and they all start tomorrow.” 

Oh, the truth of those statements. How many goals have I pushed aside? How many grand ideas have I forgotten? How many times have I committed myself to accomplishing tasks only to let something else of less importance bump it out of the way? I don't mean to bash but I am totally tired of not being an effective manager of my time. SO I am, once again, committing myself to working this method. Hey, true failure is giving up, right? I will not. So here is my commitment: 

1. Create bullet journal.
2. Set aside time for planning
3. Look at the plan throughout the day and adjust accordingly. 
4. Keep trying! 👏👍👌 

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Good Lord Grant Me

Dear God. I just want to take each day at a time. I love this prayer. Serenity, courage, and wisdom. 

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Just Like Mr. Rogers' Shoes...

Sitting in my car changing my shoes, I thought of good ole Mister Rogers. I reminded myself of him, changing into my more comfortable shoes. Boy has my perception of shoes changed. Back in the day, my main concern when it came to shoes: cuteness. Shoes didn't have to fit well or be comfortable. I could walk in uncomfortable shoes all day long and not be discouraged about wearing them again. I would look at others' shoes and be a bit perplexed when their shoe game didn't meet my standards. From there, I would judge them, "Oh Lawd, please don't let that ever be me!" When we were young, a few friends couldn't believe that I could wear heels period, let alone all day. Equating high-heeled, hella cute shoes with youth was my default.

I still remember thinking about my mother's shoes, penny loafers, and wondering how she could wear them for almost every occasion. Now I know, comfort matters. As my thinking transitions from cute to comfort, I find it really hard to balance the two. Comfortable shoes are rarely cute and if they are, they are super expensive or do not fit my feet. All my life my feet have been long and skinny: a Nordstrom, mail-order-custom type of foot. And you know what that means; extraordinarily high prices line the box of almost any shoe that fits my foot and style. 

On the bright side, I have feet to be thankful for. Big, skinny feet that deserve to be comfortable. So, no matter what, I will keep my feet focused on comfort.

Thank you, Mr. Rogers 💙




Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Slice of Truth

Be thankful
Dry clothes
Roof over my head
Change in pocket
Full stomach
I am just 
A paycheck from broke
So 
I'm choosing to be thankful
Regardless


In Nikki Grimes' Garvey's Choice, Manny candid words reflect his struggle with weight in "Slice of Truth". Just as I struggle with weight, I also struggle with money. A friend of mine always says, "things will get better..." and so I hold onto that hope of a brighter financial day. But in the meantime, I will choose to be thankful for what I DO have today. 

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

You Should Write

My mom is a very special person. When she gives you a compliment, it is a genuine compliment. She doesn't sugar coat a thing.

Today she told me that she loved my writing. She said that I should write a memoir. She said my writing included just the important details. She said it is clear and concise. She said I should write. And then she said it again. Laura Lee, you are a great writer. It meant so much to me.

I think now since my mom said it, I should believe it.



Why Am I Hungry?

Sitting here trying to focus and my stomach is aching for food. The fact that I JUST ate, I am assuming, has absolutely nothing to do with it. Why is it that when you are trying to diet (a.k.a insert any other word you want to... eat healthy, monitor intake... it is still a damn diet) that your body is hungry every waking moment? Okay, I will just speak for myself. I am hungry every damn moment I am awake. And if I am sleeping and I wake up, the first thing that comes to mind are chips--tortilla chips, potato chips, goldfish chips, pretzel chips, CHIPS.

Right now I feel as if I have no control. I don't even want to have control. I want to stop by
Chic-Fil-A on the way home and pick up a gooey chocolate dream cookie. Then I would like some ice cream on the side. I digress.

All I can think about is fooooodddddd.

Until,

Until,

I try on my pants and they will not rise above mid thigh.

Then I am disgusted.

Right now, I need not be hungry.

I just ate.