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Wednesday, March 23, 2016

10 Years

It's funny how 10 years can seem like a decade in the eyes of a 16 year old looking down into big round eyes.

You are to be seen and not heard.
And
You can't go. This isn't for babies.

Turns into 45 and 55
Eye to eye connecting

Sweetie, would you join me for a glass of wine?
And
How do you think I should handle this? You are better with kids than me.

Baby sister and friend.
I am even sometimes your mama.

It's funny how 10 years became thin air.




Monday, March 21, 2016

One Thing

I heard an advertisement this morning that asked, "what's your one thing?". I cannot remember the context of the one thing (I should have had my notebook out except for I was certain that I would remember it!) but the simplicity of the one thing stuck with me. So I googled it, and found Jerry Keller's The1thing.com

The idea is amazing. While I don't think it is ground breaking or new, I do think it is so very important. He asks his readers to find the one thing that deserves their focus and in devoting your energy there, could fine-tune or make irrelevant other obligations. 

So, what is my one thing? I can honestly say, I have not a clue. Or maybe that I have a clue (surely I must know) hidden away in my subconscious because, if I found it, I would be totally unstoppable. 

And the world just isn't ready. 
One thing, I am going to hunt you down and slay you. 

I almost never listen to the Steve Harvey morning show but this morning I did and he said something I found valuable today. His point was think about what you do everyday to unwind. Be it a nap, playing mindless games, surfing the net, etc. and how it helps you accomplish your goals. If it doesn't, start investing that time into making your dream a reality. That is very accessible to me. I can do that one thing. 

Here's a list of things I normally do after work that I know does nothing for me. In fact, most all of it sets me back.
1. nap (I have horrible insomnia whether I nap or not)
2. pour a glass of wine
3. watch recorded shows
4. too much of nothing

So, in an effort to do something that gets me closer to happy me, I will pick at least one replacement for the above: 
1. take a walk
2. cook
3. clean a drawer (organized spaces make me happy)
4. write

I have really loved this March writing challenge. I have fallen off of the wagon a couple of times but for the next 10 days I want to finish strong.



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Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Family Day

My kids and I rarely spend  time together nowadays. All three of us leaving the house with the goal of hanging out just rarely happens. But today it did. They usually protest and complain no matter what our plans are and it isn't until much later I hear them reflect on the time with nostalgia. I had planned for us to tube, but they had other plans. Turned out to be an amazing day. Listening to them talk to each other and laugh together makes me so happy. In the future, these opportunities will take much more effort as my oldest makes his way to college and my baby's high school activities overflow. Today I am reminded to make our time together a priority.

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

A Strong Woman

The second my mother laid eyes on my daughter she said, "She is going to be a strong woman!" I wondered how on earth my mother could make a statement like that as soon as the baby was born. But she was right. She is strong. She is strong-willed. She has a strong mind, strong opinions and the confidence of a privileged adult. I see her as everything that I wasn't as a child. She plays the trumpet, loves classical, speaks her mind and is a self assessed introvert.

She can pack a suitcase like nobody's business; rolls everything tight and always has what she needs. (Unfortunately, she is also very messy (like her mother) but we are really trying to do better.)

Spring cleaning... enter Marie Kondo and The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up: The Japanese Art of Decluttering and Organizing.

I read this book and because I want to be a better example and wanted to I would teach my kids the method as well. I knew Sheila would buy into because she loves Asian culture and already knows how to fold neatly and yea, all of that. I was wrong. She decided after about 30 minutes that she has a better solution to tidying. "Forget that Konmarie Method. I've got this mom."

So, I will try the method that Marie Kando claims is 100% foolproof and my daughter will try hers. I love that she is unwilling to buy into an idea just because it "supposedly works for everyone else".

Saturday, March 12, 2016

                                        



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Stream of thinking.

I used to think that one day I would grow up and get it right. Well, that hasn't happened yet. I have made accomplishments for sure, but what sticks out for me are the mistakes. I wish I had went with less, sacrificed more. Been more patient. Kept my eye on the prize. But life happened and I made my share of mistakes. If I could go back, I know I could get closer to the mark; I just know I would. I'd listen to my parents... They actually know what they are talking about. Now I know to do the best I can, with what I have. And that has to be enough.

Friday, March 11, 2016

Living My Truth


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Reading the About section of islandsofmysoul.com, I read this quote: 
Every day I am learning and unlearning more about who I am meant to be and how to live my truth and I’m so thankful you are here to join me on this journey so we can learn together. 
Shari :-)
"Every day I am learning and unlearning more about who I am meant to be and how to live my truth..." Living my own truth, is so important to me. For me, this means that I accept all of the mistakes of my past as well as forgive myself for them. In moving forward, the policy Bashing of Laura Lee not permitted" must be adhered to at all times. If the bashing begins, I stop it in its tracks, and the cycle of forgiveness and doing better begins again. Period. 
In one of Shari's slices she wrote, "I am being a tender wife to myself..." LOVE! I think that living my own truth requires the skill of taking good care of myself. Thinking deeply about what is best for me and my family and doing it; all with the love and kindness of a wife. In Proverbs 31:10 the Bible says, "Who can find a virtuous wife? For her worth is far above rubies. The heart of her husband safely trusts her; So he will have no lack of gain."
Living my truth means valuing my rubies and trusting in my spirit. I may never get this right, no one is perfect, but it means the world to me that I make it a continuous pursuit. Always. 
To My Well Being
All is well within you.
Your smile brightens the darkness
Hope encircles you
Tight as a vault (like grandpa's hugs)
Hope has your hand 
Leading you through trials 
Conquering tribulations
At all times
Through pain
Through joy
Hope will provide.
Compassion 
Reassurance
You, my dear are
Forgiven.
It is all yours. 
Take a hold of hope 
And continue in knowing
All is well within you. 


Thursday, March 10, 2016

With Tom Romano in Mind






This is a multi-genre slice in honor of the great Tom Romano. He has influenced my teaching of writing and I treasure his thinking and the "lifting up" of his students' work. Through him, I learned to give students agency in the classroom as well as to appreciate my own craft.



2 Musings:

Saw a reflection of myself. Surprised me. Walking around in my stretch skinny jeans, I saw a glimpse of the curves my legs used to be... muscles rising to the surface posing: just for me. A personal tribute to the few weeks of (semi-) dedication to lifting and panting.

I'd taken a two day sabbatical from the funky gym in rebellion of Monday's struggle. Monday, my legs were blocks of concrete. Today wasn't as hard. Today was so much better. Today I ran a bit faster and breathed a bit easier. Gratitude: check.


2 quotes via text this week at 4:00 a.m. from my sweet boyfriend who is learning how to encourage me (in ways that do not awake my inner beast). 

This was my fav:
#1
Him: 
"You don't have to be great to start, but you have to start to be great." Zig Ziglar 

Your workout quote for the day. Good morning Laura lee! Up and at it!

Me: 
Hey baby! I am up and at it!

#2 
Him:
"If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you." 

Your workout quote for the day. 

Good Morning Laura Lee! Up and at it!
I'm proud of you. Summer bodies are made in the winter. 

Me: Awwww, thank you baby. 

Two things I am thankful for:
1. My kids
2. My parents

Two lyrics from two of my favorite tunes--

Number One 
by Robert Glasper and Ledisi:

just bring me the sunshine with your smile
I will be okay
no matter if the rain falls when you call
I will be okay
just bring me the sunshine with your smile
I will be okay
no matter if the rain falls when you call
I will be okay


Number Two 
by Jill Scott:


I'm holding on to my freedom,
Can't take it from me,
I was born into it,
It comes naturally,
I'm strumming my own freedom,
Playing the god in me,
Representing his glory,
Hope he's proud of me,
I'm living my life like its golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, golden,...


Two Things
Life is so much simpler 
without 
multi-tasking. 
When numbering 
1.
and then
2.
it all seems manageable.
Task #1. check
Task # 2. check
Even though the ocean
of life looms behind me, 
the sound soothes 
One and then two.
Palatable
Bit by bit
One at a time,
Check
Check
Breathe in.
Breath out.